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To: Someone out there

It was that smile on my face noticing that I have been wanting to find my very dearest friend over this fibers from long time ago. He was always someone different for me :) a friend that I feel funny with deep down inside, he was always watch me over and I nevertheless forget to enjoy his mimics :)

Soon as I decided to choose my way up straight to a marital life, time goes by and so he was flying by...I was still having some hope that one day I would be able to meet and greet him again :) That is IF he allows me...my dear friend.

::Yenny::

Bloodship means anything to you?--part 1

I would be very confuse if your answer is NO.

Mother--Father--Children--what a bless full relationship that Allah has given down to any human in this world. Love and cherish each other,...I would always love to keep reading the book I bought in Japan in 2001 entitled "Birr-Ul Walidayn" the author (Ust. Yazid Jawas) really seems to have deep knowledge about what people almost forgot...yes, it is about being obedient and all, about love and share your care and shares to your parents.

Sorry, this is not it's meant to stepping on someone's toes...but lately I have been in a tremendously confusing situation. It's all like seeing someone you love running around, screaming and doing anonymous things in front of you though you have out loud said that it's juuuust not what they are suppose to do.

Mumbling?? yea, I am....can I just mumble in my own blog?

I know I sounded so sarcastic but life isn't always what a happy happy day all the time, you would dropped down to see how your family just can't hold their nafs (desire) to keep spreading love and care...

I am a very family and homey based person. I love kids and can't live without them and my dearest soul mate. Despite I do love my father and mother too...can't imagine my life without their existence...I share my thoughts, lip service and try to be an extra hand for them at anytime, blah blah blah...would you call what I'm doing as "Cari Muka"? in English western use the term "kissing someone's butt" -- sorry I don't know how to say this in polite English since the meaning is nothing but to bash someone's out-- but do let me know if anyone of you know it, I will edit my post.

Let me tell you what is "Cari Muka"....
I would split this word into two definitions;
--Cari Muka 1: an action that presents in front of other people that shows a love or care affection with an expectation in a short moment.
--Cari Muka 2: an action that presents in front of other people that shows a love or care affection with-out any expectation in a long-term expect nothing but to achieve a better quality relationship.

Some people I realize can't see the difference between this two...
Being obedient to your parents, being cheerful and a hand for your parents is not something "not cool". To do so is to show how much you want them to know that you have honor them and appreciate their effort who have brought you up from nothing to how you are right now. Lip service is not to bluff, but to mingle with their heart and mind, giving them hopes that there will be you at the end of their world....

Being someone that shows Birr (Obedience) to your parents will actually brings Rahmah (love) from Allah, brings Rizky (wealth), and a light wing to your heart. Your children will be blessed with the same thought as you do, won't you like to see your children hold your hand smiling at you when you starts to shaking just to walk down a meter far? --- I love what John F. Kennedy said "don't ask what your country can do for you, but ask yourself what you can do for your country" it ask you to look at ourself before others ---

Some of you who read this might think that I am too arrogant to judge others people that I am the only one doing the right thing...well...to tell you the truth, NO ONE IS PERFECT. So do I.

This thinking coming up for some reason, this is the process in my mind that grows and I would say that this is a step forward for me to think more. I really hope that you don't have to go through what I had. The key is just to understand your role, Allah creates this world with regulation and rules. Allah knows how things needs to be operated --- won't you think the company who made the BMW knows how to operate the thing? --- just read the manual and do the best we can...human go through processes and it's good, Allah will count every effort for you to go to heaven not the result. And don't  you feel relieve to know that one way to go is to do Birr-ul Walidayn?

to be continued....

What do you want? --part1

Now I have come to realize that looking for reward from God is not about who is more powerful and winning debates between man and woman, but its more about how you beat the challenge to be able to play your role.

Lets say that women ARE able to be independent, but I should put an underline for "in a certain way only". We have to admitt that somehow...men ARE more than women, eventhough women ARE priceless when it comes to be the one who can guard their belongings and chastity.

Wouldn't you all say so?

Yea, I know what you might say. But, to answer this you need to close your eyes and just let your heart answers for you.

Once again, it's not about winning or loosing. Have you ever think of sharing and winning under one word of "together"?

Might also be the answer that come out of your head is "this is nonsence...". Hey, you must remember also two very important things, one is what was your innitial intention for debating, and two is who is going to be happy at the finnish line? are there the same person who start with you at the starting line?

Think of every reasons and that there might be someone wanting this to happen between you and him. So far, if you think you would reconsider on what's going on, good for you! if not, well...just continue reading my writing, you won't spend your time for nothing.

OK, come on join me and let's sit back together and everyone start to play that tape in your head.

1st question, What is a woman?
2nd question, What is your definition for Career Woman?
3rd question, What is your idea on Highly Educated Woman?
Okay, I know also that some people say these are their main goal in their life.
Now, let's leave this here....

Answer this last question, What are hopes you expect to come at the end for these?

Instantly, you would pumped up by your adrenalin when you're imagining on everything you could achieve with those titles, but at the end of the tunnel you will see that the journey is ended up somewhere you dont wanna belong.

Dessert of Life.

I would call it so. No green trees, and plain old brown sandy rocks, wild wierd looking creatures swept away by the wind, your breath so heavy looking for some water, very cold during the night, and empty during the day.----No way, I don't think I want this for anything!

I don't think that is a very good end for my life----talking about life, at least I am speaking for myself and my life. I don't really want to bother people's life, but you girls really blutantly following what people want for you, not what you want for your self. It's not easy I would say, but remember what people often says, "When there's a will, theres a way" right? :)

At the end---for now, being a submisif woman---I don't mean what you mean in your head, wait when I talk about this in my next writing---will actually colors your life, living day-to-day with warm hearted loving people arround you and they will stay there for you to fill in those nasty life before you close your eyes for good.

"every people are different, but they are made to overcome the same kinds of musibah from Allah"

Hope this fruit of mind can help anyone
---With Love

Love without boundaries - "oh Allah please let me to see this person in real..."

Do you believe that saying of, "love has no boundaries" ??  I do, I am one of those  who believe that love doesn't take anything but your heart and your feeling of ikhlas or sincerity to share your thoughts and care...gee I cant believe I would make this kinda blog hahahaha....

But, where I can share my feeling coz dunno how to.....erm...ergh..nevermind...

I love her, and I do believe that she loves me too...(hey!!!! I'm not a Bi, I'm talking about my mother in Law) her cares and love, attention, really never thought that someone that I never (yet) meet has already my heart on her...that is what makes me peeping like a baby each time I remember about her figure and her word she wrote on a piece of pink paper sent by an express delivery package company.

Not that the fact she sent me stuff, but...its so crazy that a person like her wouldn't see me as a girl from a 3rd world country, non-Caucasian, never talk but a wire away by the phone and reading her word through the chatting screen. Yet she still can have a feeling of love to me....really eyes-opening to see that LOVE is ACTUALLY has a totally different meaning when you see it from a different angle.

Love you Mom :) We''ll see each other one day......

My Dear Friend...

Dear Friend,...
This is dedicated to my friend one in PC that I pray may Allah SWT guide her in the correct path and that I really would hope that she could be a better person in the future. Really I dont undertand what she is NOW trying to do with everyone of us. Doesnt everybody in this world realize what is the purpose for us to live in this world? Dont just try to find faults and dont ever to hope that other people would understand us. and what's more important is that dont ever to make any destruction within in this world.

Many people think that I am defending this one friend I have and not to the rest (???) really this is truly a premature understanding for what I've been doing. I do believe that blamming someone else doesnt have to take place in front of others, would we want to be treated the same way??....I think its obviously they want me to take this one man stand and hit run to their satisfaction.

Oh come on!! although I know that she might DID some mistakes and not all of them are wrong, but can we just spread love?...peace and please dont sound like hippies that always announce to the world that they peace lover but the only thing they care about is just drugs and stuff yuck!...

Really it is too little time and to much to do just to reach the heaven, why would we fill out our life with something that we might NOT need to get the ticket to heaven. lets consider it this way,...wont you like to have a nice place in heaven and look around you and you can see the one you always love that is your lovable husband and your children surround you...feel the sense of just ikhlas. Knowing that someone could do mistakes and cant WE?? lets go back to our own mind and action.

Dont you think so?.....

Saling menghujat, but WHY?

Sometimes aku bingung juga dengan kebiasaan orang belakangan ini. Gimana enggak...saling hujat menghujat sudah merupakan fenomena sehari hari. Let me guess, it's hard to not having any say about what other people did or do...RIGHT?

Sayangnya kenapa kita selalu menjadi pihak yang merasa benar? apa "sign" yang bisa membuat orang bisa memilah kalau qt yang benar??...banyak sekali rekan aku yang berkeluh kesah mendapati "sahabat"nya akhirnya melego kepercayaan satu sama lain...anehnya dia juga merasa dia juga ikutan melego kepercayaan temannya ke dia...(????????) dunno why :)

I am not the "Mrs.Right" just Mrs.Wright hehehe do you see the difference? Most people make me feel akcward when it comes to solving the problem that they have caused, what else...HONESTY :) just be honest and willing to take the blame to yourself and try to get up and move forward. Really people will admire you when you just smile and admitt your mistakes, let's hope that Allah SWT will take it as something to raise your degree :)

One fine day was ruin with my new thought that even the people surround me or even far away from me has been thinking "neg" about me or even my marriage but, Allah knows :) I never feel anything bad about them just thanking them for always thinking about me...I (I know that they probably having a bad day and talking about me will cheer them up) hahahahaha....

Oh well,..not all of my friends ARE like that...just a small number of them but, they dont know me :) we should just forgive people, coz there's nothing else we can do but to just make more friends in this world right??

What a friend....can you believe this???

Dear Friends,...
Never thought that what I call Friend either Best friend would be so awful....I would suggest you to believe that seeing your friend as a friend would have to take a moment to see how truthfully their heart is just to know you and accept you what ever you are.

How could someone saying that my marriage is a lie???....I'm not that stupid to call this person a friend of mine, noway! what a horrible person this  person is.  Without no compromise and  finding out the truth,and yet never meet me in person this "friend" had already "know" me so well that to have a good enough reason to say this and that and so about me...and,...what ever!

Another person, new friends that never know the true meaning of friend except for trying to find a problem in between...well I did challenge them to meet me in person all of them at once,...I never feel fear or anger...I am just "ready" but...where are they? show me your guts?!....ergh...never been so disappointed in my life about what I so called a "friend".

Looking for the right one...

Where and how should I start this out?...okay some people might already know that I am waiting for my 3rd one to come out to this one big messy world. No one knows but God wether my baby would be a male or a female...which is VERY good hehe..

But, what's funny is, still its a wonder for some people...including my parents. "So, is it a boy? a girl? you've checked yet??? huh? huh?".....that old same question are once again raising up to my ears.

So what gitu loh?! Girl juga gak apa apa kan? Boy sih gak usah ditanya...itu namanya SANGAT apa apa HAHAHA.....oops,...hey! Im not joking, you have to get 2 healthy goat for the Aqiqah right? that would cost you a bit right???...nevermind. Right now I am looking for the right one....I mean a NAME.

Uuuuuuuh spooky little thinggy :D my husband had ONE name in his head for a boy name for a looong time, but I think he hasnt got the girl's one. Me? hmm I am looking for the MIDDLE name, coz as an American they should have middle name!

So, the bottom lined is, do you have any idea????????